[Verse 1]
Probation lines, those painted walls
Scraped off rust in county halls
They said, “Straighten up your time is thin”
So I learned how not to let them in
Friday nights still called my name
Cheap burn whiskey, numb the shame
Laugh too loud so they won’t see
The ghost that’s sittin’ inside of me
[Pre-Chorus]
Played it cool, played it clean
Chaos lives in in-between
[Chorus]
Drinkin’ from the spout, never get enough
Smilin’ like an angel, wired up and rough
They all thought I was sober, I just learned to hide
Every crack in the mirror, every war inside
I wasn’t lost, I didn’t care
If anybody saw me there
[Verse 2]
Homecoming night, out in the open
Cooler spout, crowd stay hopin’
Cold ran fast, I fed the flame
Everybody knew my name
Screamin’ loud like I won’t change
Livin’ fast on a borrowed stage
Hands up high, I led the scene
Every eye locked onto me
[Pre-Chorus]
They saw a kid who had it made
Perfect mask I always played
[Chorus]
Drinkin’ from the spout, never get enough
Smilin’ like an angel, wired up and rough
They all thought I was sober, I just learned to hide
Every crack in the mirror, every war inside
I wasn’t lost, I didn’t care
If anybody saw me there
[Bridge]
Stole those CDs from the mall
Tryna feel somethin’ at all
Plastic cases, hollow sound
Turn it up and drown it out
Say my name, say it loud
I was king inside that crowd
Even if it was a lie
Didn’t wanna feel denied
[Final Chorus]
Drinkin’ from the spout just to feel alive
All that noise and chaos kept me high
They all thought I was steady, I played it right
But the dark kept growin’ every night
I wasn’t lost,I was unseen
Somewhere in between