Ghosts I Carry is about learning to remember without becoming imprisoned by memory. Some ghosts bring shame, some bring lessons, and some simply prove that survival happened.
I carry people, memories, mistakes, and moments that never fully left.
Women I hurt. People I disappointed. Anger I released. Chances I wasted. Versions of myself I’m ashamed of. Friends tied to chapters I had to bury.
Some ghosts accuse me. Some ghosts teach me. Some ghosts remind me I survived.
This song is me learning to walk with memory without letting memory own me.
[Verse 1] Same halls, a cheerleader’s eyes Found me there, I can’t say why In a place I came undone Felt like more than just someone Late night talks, no need to pretend Two lost souls just tryin’ to bend For a moment I felt clean Like I wasn’t what I’d been [Pre-Chorus] Felt like somethin’ breakin’ through But I didn’t know what to do [Chorus] I got ghosts I carry now Every face, every sound Every chance I let fall through Every “I should’ve” I knew I keep walkin’, but they stay Right beside me every day I’m still breathin’, still around But I feel ‘em weigh me down [Verse 2] Met a brother in that place Real talk, no mask to face He saw through what I’d become Still stood there when I’d run Said we’d make it, said we’d change Swore we’d break out of the same But I slipped and let him down Turned my back, left the ground [Pre-Chorus] Thought I’d have more time to fix All the things I let go miss [Chorus] I got ghosts I carry now Every word I didn’t shout Every time I walked away Every moment I delayed I keep walkin’, but they stay Right beside me every day I’m still breathin’, still around But I feel ‘em weigh me down [Bridge] He ain’t here… and I don’t know why But I feel it every time I try If I stayed, if I fought, if I didn’t leave… Would he still be here with me? [Final Chorus] I got ghosts I carry now And I don’t know how to set ‘em down Every life I couldn’t save Every choice that dug a grave I keep breathin’, don’t know why When better men didn’t survive I’m still here, still around… But I carry ‘em now [Outro] In that place I fell apart I still remember her heart And the ones I couldn’t keep…