Loud Enough to Hide is about building a public identity out of parties, humor, drinking, confidence and swagger while loneliness, anger, insecurity and pain remained underneath.
I became the loud version of a hurting person.
Parties, jokes, drinking, skating, girls, confidence, swagger, stories — that became my armor. People saw energy. They didn’t see emptiness.
The louder I got, the more I could hide what was underneath me: loneliness, anger, insecurity, confusion, and pain I never dealt with.
I became someone people noticed, but not someone people knew.
[Verse 1] Probation lines, those painted walls Scraped off rust in county halls They said, “Straighten up your time is thin” So I learned how not to let them in Friday nights still called my name Cheap burn whiskey, numb the shame Laugh too loud so they won’t see The ghost that’s sittin’ inside of me [Pre-Chorus] Played it cool, played it clean Chaos lives in in-between [Chorus] Drinkin’ from the spout, never get enough Smilin’ like an angel, wired up and rough They all thought I was sober, I just learned to hide Every crack in the mirror, every war inside I wasn’t lost, I didn’t care If anybody saw me there [Verse 2] Homecoming night, out in the open Cooler spout, crowd stay hopin’ Cold ran fast, I fed the flame Everybody knew my name Screamin’ loud like I won’t change Livin’ fast on a borrowed stage Hands up high, I led the scene Every eye locked onto me [Pre-Chorus] They saw a kid who had it made Perfect mask I always played [Chorus] Drinkin’ from the spout, never get enough Smilin’ like an angel, wired up and rough They all thought I was sober, I just learned to hide Every crack in the mirror, every war inside I wasn’t lost, I didn’t care If anybody saw me there [Bridge] Stole those CDs from the mall Tryna feel somethin’ at all Plastic cases, hollow sound Turn it up and drown it out Say my name, say it loud I was king inside that crowd Even if it was a lie Didn’t wanna feel denied [Final Chorus] Drinkin’ from the spout just to feel alive All that noise and chaos kept me high They all thought I was steady, I played it right But the dark kept growin’ every night I wasn’t lost,I was unseen Somewhere in between